December 10, 2018
Drew called me today at 6am. He had just been in a bad car accident. His room-mate was driving them back from a friends house when they were t-boned.
He was shaken up pretty bad. He said his nose was broke and his eye was split open from hitting the dash. He said the snow was bright red from his blood.
It’s so scary when your kids are hurt and they are so far away. There is nothing you can do.
Thank God they were ok.
November 25, 2018:
He did it again with some bullshit excuse. Why does he even bother inviting me?
I’m just keeping busy. I’m trying so hard to not think about him at all. Rae is cleaning vacation homes now so I go with her every weekend. I’m exhausted and so sore but it keeps my mind off this.
It’s hard because Grace is so obsessed with Parker and she talks about him all the time. It reminds me of Robbie. I told her not to mention Robbie again. I need to move on.
I had a second interview for a job in Arizona. It went really well. I’m stressed about the pay though. I’ll be losing a lot of money but I need to start over.
Rae and the kids went to eat with her family. They invited us but Wyatt and I aren’t into the holiday spirit this year.
We went and ate at a restaurant and we actually had a good time. The food was good and we talked about life. We talked about Luke and Beau and Drew. We talked about moving to Arizona.
We are both ready for a change.
November 15, 2018
Robbie invited me to his gig on December 8th. The kids are going to go with me and make a weekend vacation out of it. I haven’t seen him since March. I’m nervous but excited.
He always backs out so I’m not going to get too excited.
November 3, 2018
Grace is back. We met up for ice cream and to go see Bohemian Rhapsody. It was an amazing movie!
The night before they left for vacation Grace’s husband showed her an email between him and Parker. It was disgusting. They were discussing, in detail, what they were going to do to Grace. She was crying. I told her that Parker was an asshole and that her husband was acting like her pimp. I told her that in my opinion she shouldn’t go. She said it was too late to back out. I told her I’d drop her husband off at the hotel with Parker and tell them to have fun together and leave.
But she didn’t. She went. Her husband took video’s so he can relive it. Ugh, I can’t stand either of those men now.
They met up with him for four hours in a hotel. After Grace left, Parker texted her and said that he felt guilty and that he wanted to slow things down. He said meeting up in person was a lot different than just texting. At least he has the decency to feel bad.
Grace and her husband got in a huge fight on the last day of their vacation because he made her ask Parker if they could meet up one more time before they left. Parker said no. Her husband was furious. He told Grace that Parker was treating her like a piece of meat and told her that he must not care for her at all. I told her that her husband was the most manipulative person on the planet and that the only thing he cared about was being able to get off again. I also told her that she needed to divorce him. She sent me all the screen shots. Her husband got into her phone and saw that she sent everything to me and he read what I wrote. He hates me but I don’t care.
She is now more in love with Parker than ever. I don’t get it. I feel so bad for her. She doesn’t know that she deserves better.
October 28, 2018
The Dodgers lost the world series against the Red Sox. What a bummer. No baseball until March. I guess I have four months to catch up on my TV shows.
Maybe I’ll be living in Arizona by March….
October 10, 2018
My boys spent the last week with us! We haven’t all been together since Luke’s funeral. I have missed them so much. Wyatt missed his brothers. My boys have always been close.
They drove down, 23 hours. Autumn drove the first 12 hours then Beau drove while Drew was bored to death in the back seat.
We spent a week eating and talking and catching up. Bubba has been talking about riding the go carts and riding with Uncle Drew so we did that. We also played laser tag.
On the last day we all went and hung out with Luke’s dad. Bittersweet.
Luke finally got to see Montana when he drove back with the boys. He’s at Beau’s house on his mantle. He says strange things have been happening since his Dad got there. Odd sounds, flickering lights. Autumn says someone keeps tapping on her feet while she’s sleeping. Beau thinks she’s crazy but he says his house is peaceful now.