Another day. I’m sitting in my bedroom again. I’m always so lonely.
I’m so insecure. Luke made me feel insecure because he always put everyone else before me.
I’m so afraid that Robbie doesn’t love me. I don’t know why am so attached to him. If I can’t be with him, I’m never going be happy again.
I feel so bad all the time. So sad. So dark. So insecure.
I have a friend from high school that’s been texting me. I was really good friends with him. He is married. He always been a cheater. He texts me all the time. It’s like he knows when I’m feeling really bad.
He always tells me how beautiful I am and that he loves me. I know it’s terrible and I shouldn’t even talk to him. I would never have an affair with a married man. I feel so bad and he makes me feel loved.
He knows I’m talking to someone but doesn’t know who. He knows Robbie, but tells me that he doesn’t want to know who I’m seeing. I never tell him any details about Robbie. In fact, I haven’t really told any of my old friends about him.
Married guy tells me that anybody who doesn’t want to be with me all the time is stupid. I know he just wants to get laid but it still makes me feel better about myself.
He makes me feel loved. I’ve been so lost.