Back to work today. Charlotte and Emily, my work friends, kept Luke’s death quiet for me except for people I know well. They also told the same people that I wanted every one to act normal. No hugs, no condolences, no mention of Luke’s death. I do not want to cry. I hate being emotional in front of anyone. I’ve spent decades crying in my bathroom for that exact reason.
I still come home every night and have a conversation with Luke. I tell him what going on with everything.